Yesterday it was my graduation. I don’t know how to feel now that I’m no longer a secondary school student. I’m nothing. Especially since I haven’t finalised my application to the uni I’ve mentioned over and over. Not like I can do it, since the confirmation process starts in August. So i’m neither a secondary school student nor a uni student. Feels weird to call myself that, it’s like my mind hasn’t accepted that I’ve graduated.
Today I’ve gone to pick up my graduation diploma. Yeah. The school really wanted to do the graduation in a specific music hall to the point that they didn’t even give us our diplomas. What. Was it really too difficult to plan the graduation in like December if they oh so much wanted to do it there?? But cool. Also, yesterday I wore a dress I did! Well, more like modified (cut the top section to have it like a tank top, also the sleeves once i realised they didn’t look like i wanted to later sew back again onto the dress and added pink details). Also made some himekaji-like wrist accessories(??) and painted some mary jane’s in pink (originally red). I think it looked good, and some people complimented my outfit (some were even surprised when I told them I made it!!). Tbh I thought I would have cried like a baby either during or after the graduation, but I didn’t!! I mean, I did cry but not because of it. I saw an ex-ex friend (apologised for not really accepting her trying to fix the friendship after one-sidedly (my side) arguing and asked to be friends again, so she's no longer an ex friend). So there was that. She said I could send her a message anytime and we could talk. Still kinda annoyed that she didn't remember my birthday these past 2 years after she changed schools tho.
Tomorrow there's also supposed to be a special dinner, but I didn't get ticket for it. Partially bcs I found out the comitee in charge of it had closed the inscriptions(?) for it the day after and also because it was like 130€ per person for a kinda trashy thing (for by brother's grad it was a couple of drinks and snacks). But my friends decided to meet up afterwards to go to the city center, I think? and I was invited to go with them. So I'll be able to hang out with them!!
Edit: like two hours before the dinner a friend of mine (one of the two I was going to meet with later) told me her mother couldn't make it and that, after checking with one of the organizers, I could use her ticket, so I was able to go!! Afterwards, instead of going to the city center we went to the afterparty. Tho it wasn't as fun as I expected, nor I was able to drink as much as I wanted, since I had a bit of a stomach ache (don't know if it was from eating too much, my period, or taking painkillers and shortly after drinking alcohol, or all of them). Cried a bit after leaving and also when I got home, since my friends had to take a taxi to my house so that I could go home and later to a museum, instead of the museum directly.